Missing you is the hardest thing, but i love you to much not to do so. I can’t be without you all together, so i will have to be without you for the short term, no matter how much it hurts being away from you or being left here without you. I love you that much and that is the hard part. But that was always going to be my decision and nothing will change that, no matter what the enemy wants to throw at us. You were and are my answer to prayer and i’m not about to throw away my miracle.
You know i wake up in the middle of the night and can sleep if i know your there downstairs on the sofa below me, and lay awake missing you if there’s a space where you’re normally lay. I miss you so much already and thinking about the rest is killing me. So for now let’s forget it and i will forget it and deal with it as it comes. Maybe this is my giant. I guess i need to find some good stones it throw at it.

Proverbs 4v23 ‘Above all else guard your heart, for it is the wellsrping of life’ ♥
‘Be careful what you think, because your thoughts run your life.’
(via dreamandwake)
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow
This is the song that gave me strength and got me to sleep last night.♥

I know it may be from a different holiday but this popped up today and put a smile on my face. I love him. He is the reason this Christmas is so excting. ♥